Help I’m Gay (Maybe) and High

Written By Brian Cruz

When Lindsey first brought this topic to my virtual desk, she didn’t phrase it with any negative connotation.

As a gay, I think gay things when I’m high frequently, but I felt like Lindsey was probably looking for someone who identified as heterosexual and thinks gay thoughts, only or mostly when they are high. ‘

Tis not the case for me, but based on my experience of repressing my sexuality for most of my life coupled with the occasional hook up with a closeted friend, I can imagine what a candidate she is looking for might be like.

I wouldn’t say my high thoughts differ in extreme to my sober thoughts. Aside from that, sober I am less creative, more irritable, and more self-conscious. When high, I take my thoughts and reflect on their nature. I don’t hold myself to a puritan standard of what is normal. Just look outside, “normal” in the U.S.A. is very weird.

I, at the risk of labeling myself some pervert, think thoughts that interpret as heterosexual, even to me, my own critic.